Is it that it's not time yet?
will the time come?
can You hold my hand and guide me through again?

I know this is what I want.

Please.

I believe it was You who guided me this far because certain things happen for a reason.
So walk me to the end.

Or is this another one of the reasons again?

I walked home in the rain.
Because I wanted to feel the rain fall on me.
But it only made me more aware
of how my body can be straight
but my soul can't.

Please?

5 weeks to exams.
HA.

Tell me i'm wrong.

I need that peace within.
I need time to slow down.
I need to know.

What happens when you are overwhelmed? You start losing sleep. Not losing sleep per se, but your brain just refuses to stop working and let you sleep well. When you sleep your brain behaves like the BFG, putting silent dreams into your head and plays with your imagination. Is it then a problem with the mind or with the brain? Your tummy behaves like food is an indulgence and limits you to one meal per day. All plots and plans to put on weight fails, for the 5th year. I so badly want life to be a tad simpler, to not care about obligations and goals, to sit under a tree with leaves falling around me. Just sitting there and reading a book, wearing some comfy dress and going back to a home smelling of freshly baked cookies and chocolate cakes and having them for tea. But I also know that the moment my life becomes that way, I want it to be more complicated. Because I know I won't be used to it. Maybe I will get used to it when I am an old granny, sitting at my rocking chair and knitting away. BUT THEN AGAIN, WHERE TO GET THIS KIND OF PLACE IN SINGAPORE? haha.

Thank You Lord, for Your blessings. Please watch over me again for the next few steps, until this journey is all over. Please Lord.

When your heart gets tired you are sucked of all energy.
When it gets cold you wonder.
and you hate yourself for it.
Maybe I'm just tired.
Maybe there's too much going on in my head now.
What I want what I need to do what I am hoping for what I wish I could deal with.

Lord, give me the strength. Please.

Singapore Sun Festival's coming up. 3rd - 12th October. A list of stuff that caught my eye...

- Great Classics Under The Stars @ Singapore Botanic Gardens
High Soviety (1956): 9th Oct
Casablanca (1942): 10 Oct
The Last Emperor 91987): 11 Oct
- A Film and Food Affair @ The Screening Room
Before Night Falls: 2nd, 3rd Oct
The Sun Also Rises: 8 Oct
Saving Face: 9, 10 Oct
- The Politics of Theatre with Alfian Saat
- Sunday Afternoon with Deepak Chopra
- In Conversation with Wole Soyinka

and... BOY at esplanade from 15-18 Sept.


Nice.

Day 2 - Shanghai Part 2

After leaving the hotel, we ate ramen for lunch and went to the Shanghai Ocean Aquarium. Quite like the underwater world in Singapore, although it supposedly has the longest underwater tunnel in the world - 155m. So off we went: